Since I know I have at least
one reader, and since writing is a good thing, I begin again. One, you better keep your end of the bargin.
3:19 -
3:25 - I just wrote something about writing and erased it. I would erase this but I want to get through this first post as soon as possible.
3:26 - I have a crink in my neck that has lived there (in the left side, just next to my vocal cords) on and off for the past four years. It feels like someone has inserted a closed fist under the left side of my jawbone such that half the fist has actually grown into the flesh of my neck. Right now the fist is angry and tight. It's not always this tight.
3:33 - My son, Andrew; Andrew, my son: he is almost crawling now. He sits gets up on his hands and knees and rocks back and forth. Sometimes he puts a hand or a knee foward, but no consecutive foward movements yet. Its absolutely mindblowing how fast this son of mine is going to grow up into a person who speaks and has feelings, who thinks in the first person and thinks about me as a second person. I will be "Dad"; he will be "me"; another generation in this grand drama of time and space before the Lord, the giver of life.
3:37 - Trying to order this jumbled mind of mine takes time.
Come back to the concrete: write. It's threeforty and Sunday; more will come, but not today.